Sunday, March 21, 2021

Love Grieves

 


I love love

I write about love

My go-to doodle word

I love love.

Yet, today, I've been betrayed.
By someone I truly loved.

By someone I said my vows to.

By someone I shared my body with.


Love is not an illusion 

And it's betrayal? Like a slow death.

There are lumps in my throat

My heart is heavy and it won't stop pounding

Blood pressure? Working overtime.

My stomach is in knots

It's stopped asking for food, for water.


Today, I am grieving.

It's like someone died.

I'm confused, I'm anxious, I'm scared

Scared of the unknown 

I don't know what to do

But still, I believe in love. 

Monday, March 15, 2021

Rose-Coloured Glasses

Please love me
Words of desperation?
Not exactly.
But rather, a longing
A yearning for yesterday
When I was your queen
Your pride, your joy
On your arm, you proudly wore me
Bright and new- for all the world to see.

I reminisce of time past
When I came before all else
When your best smile, thought and deed, for me were reserved
Of a time when peace, joy and laughter
Beautifully co-habited in a sacred place
Preserved exclusively for us
When love filled our hearts and intertwined our beings into a single existence.

With reckless abandon we exhibited our love
Our affection- boundless
In the world- the population was two
Number two- signifying me and you
Our world-complete-
The flame of our passion, inextinguishable
Like Simon and Daphne- for each other, we burned.

With the lapse of time and distance
A change happened
Seemingly non-existent at first
We brushed it off as dust on a warm harmattan day
Then the crevices became visible
Yet these were deemed insignificant
In denial, we built a garden of deception
Where we watered thorns that grew in the cracks of our love
To our garden we tended and with time it flourished
What a bloom! A perfect harvest of lies, tears and mistrust.

Then my rose-coloured glasses shattered
And with every tiny shard
My vision was restored.